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Monday, December 13, 2004



haiz...todae's mood....sad...earli in the morning...when ta skool...they sae they wanted ta change he grouping...then was like...all of us are separated!!!and they claim tat it ish fair cuz we draw tat lot ourselves!!!RUBBISH!!!Now...we are all separated into different groups lor...mi in grp 1...wan lin & eileen in grp 2...sheena & xuan in grp 3...wat ish tis...?!?After all tis drawing of lots...mi already not in veri gd mood le lor...juz hoping mayb we could at least get a better PL...in the starting part of guitar..i was realli totally no mood lor...then mr albert came over and ask mi try tat 12 string guitar...then i dun wan..then he insisted tat i try lor..then i tell him i got no mood...then sze yun somehow tell him wat happen lor...he said...y look sho sad..?then in the whole lesson..i will have a long face like the bulldog lor...not like tat happy bear tat i have on mah baggie...then he went off...somehow he was rite...i tried ta be happy lor...but i find tat i can't...sho i try ta act happie lor...we got break le sze yun and i went up ta join them fer the dance...did have a little fun lor...after guitar..we went ta join them...they voted er the new CL and all tat stuff lar..then they brought us ta our PL...then i somehow real suay...i got into his grp AGAIN!!!I feel tat there ish no hope lor...i dunno lor...then we went ta discuss tat talent time and campfire item which we suppose ta perform during the camp lor....then they like blur blur..then bo chap like tat..somehow like other PLs tell their members more then wat he did...he like didn't explain everything clearly lor...then we plan ta meet up tml ta do those stuff...after all the meeting...the CLs annouced our new CLs and stuff lar...then she call fer a meeting ta all the PS...somehow toking ta us and ask those kanna nominated but didn't get tat post de not ta be dishearted and stuff lar...then yt also ask sze yun and i ta motivate our grp mebers if they are not happy wif the PL lor...was like...mi myself already not happy then how to motivate them...they did motivate mi instead of mi motivating them lor...haiz...then after all those meetings...i went to eileen's hse wif them...then i somehow...dunno wat i doin there...they are not from mah grp and they are doin their things...i realli wonder...y am i there???from 4 plus stayed there till 6 plus lor..and i am doin nth there...and then now..they sae tat the meeting wif the scouts ish cancelled dunno due ta wat reason...there ish not much time left..and i also dunno wat they doin...after all he ish still our PL..still have ta respect him..i can't do anything lor...fer guides...we still meeting tml lor..hopefully we can get the dance done tml lor...and i onli koe tat i am wearing a mask all the time..fer the whole dae todae lor...haiz...one more thing...from sat till now...i dunno y lor...once i am not doin sth or i somehow stare into space..i will think of him...haix...and i didn't see him fer days...or even weeks!!!I MISS U!!!watever lar...i also dunno wat i doin lor..sometimes think too much le...feel like crying...haiz...hopefully tat everything goes well in the patrol fer the combine camp and all the members inside lor...I WILL TRY MY BEST TA BE HAPPY!!!& WORK WIF THOSE GUYS IN MAH PATROL!!!


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