for my loved ones ..

ang yi ting ..
thanks for being there all the time when i need someone to talk to ..
its nice to have you as a fren and being with mie all the time ..
rmb to continue to to write the book k ..
so that we could keep in contact ..
theres so much to say that i dunno what to say ..
oh ya ..
wheres my hp pouch !!????
i'm still waiting k !!

pei ..
can i say we click on quite well ??
we actually have the same type of character ..
LOL ..
and we love last min decisions ..
last min outing ..
and ..
SHOPPING !!!!
HAHA ..
real nice to have u around and go crazy with mie when that eil doesn't agrees with mie ..
you and her will be in the same sch ..
but do rmb to come tamp to look for mie k ..
you two can take bus 72 from one end to the other !!!!
i know you will miss mie lla !!!!
=DD
dun you forget bout mie k ..

wanlin ..
" i noe u miss me.. JC life very busy.. but juz for u, i will find some time juz for u.. haha.. i also got a lot of things to tell you.. miss ya a lot.. "
this is what this women left mie ..
like der ..
i miss you too ..
it seems like its harder fo meet ups ..
poly starting soon ..
and we have totally different holidays ...
so quickly find a day and meet mie b4 my poly starts k !!
=D
do rmb the times we spend ..
the fun we had ..
=)

sheena ..
i'll nv forget how we actually get to know each other during sec 1 ..
all the lame and funny things you used to do ..
all the chatting and eating together ..
and us always being that kpo to find out things ..
the playing at NTUC ..
all and all ..
thanks for those memories ..

sze yun ..
the woman who hardly changes her mind when she decide on sth ..
one whom always live up to her own style regradless of others ..
thanks for e comments that u always give ..
and the nv die spirit ..
sometimes i feel better with you arround ..
with the support that you always give ..
it makes mie feel like i'm right regardless what they say ..
=)

pauline ..
the dumbo woman who always make so much noise ..
HAHA ..
love the stories you always tells mie ..
those heart to heart talk ..
the way you say some things ..
the time when u always hears to my stories ..
love you for everything that you gave ..
study hard k !!!
=)

tee ..
i know you've tried to be urself ..
tried to recover ..
take ur time k ..
dun worry ..
you always have friends around you !!
feel free to come to us ..
i rmbed we were once that close like real blood sisters ..
mayb we did drift ..
but i've gotta say ..
thanks for giving mie support when i'm down ..
thanks for listening to mie ..
hopefully we stay together jux like before ..

ham ..
thanks for advices you always gave ..
i love the days we used to walk home together ..
the days where we used to talk to each other bout our own stuff ..
the time where we go have lunch together ..
the flagging of taxis when we were running late for sch ..
the mac breakfast we used to buy before sat guides training ..
all and all ..
i miss the good old days ..
and ur accompany ..
thanks for everything ..
=)

pig from bangalah ..
thanks for ur accompany through everything ..
i know you are always there when i need someone ..
i know you care and worry bout mie all the time ..
dun worry so much k ..
i'll be fine ..
i PROMISE !!
=)
do tc of urself ..
dun busy till forget bout mie k !!

old man ..
thanks for lending mie ur games all the time ..
they spared mie from boredom ..
teasing you is so fun ..
it makes mie happy ..
its nice to have some heart to heart talk with you once in a while ..
dun forget u still owe mie happy meal k !!
=D

tc ..
the one who never fails to make mie laugh ..
ever since i know you ..
and when u are around ..
it'll jux make mie happy ..
i LOVE quarrelling with you ..
its jux so fun ..
i LOVE to laugh at you ..
u always entertain mie regradless of what ..
no matter how down i am ..
ur actions alone would make mie SMILE ..
THANK YOU SO MUCH BOULDER !!!!!
i still like to call you PEBBLE LLA !!!!
=)
THANKS for everything ..

HEY PPL !!!!
thanks for coming into my life ..
you guys made my life a WONDERFUL one !!!
LOVE ALL !!!!

LoUviN U__]]* 7:38 PM

blogged using my phone when i'm overseas ..

19/3
how much i wish that he is with mie ..
at least i wun be bored ..
events were great ..
went to have lunch at bi hou ah yi's restaurant ..
followed by ah ju ah yi's hse ..
her grandson was super cute ..
we went temple pai pai den to massage ..
dinner at restaurant ..
and back to hotel ..
one thing i must say ..
its not a high class hotel ..
its a kind of low class de thats kind of eerie ..
just knew that thai got no 3 pin plus ..
so can't charge psp ..
which means can't play it all e time ..
so i'm freaking bored ..
so decided that i could do a daily note so i could blog ..

hmm ..
i really miss him llars ..
feel like smsing him,
call him,
and talk to him ..
mayb cux he give mie a sense of secure bahx ..

blogged at 12.31am

20/3
woke up at 5.30am ..
5.52am raining ..
used cardboards to cover cux no umbrella ..
walked streets to morning market ..
saw cockroach ..
got thunder ..
6am ..
heavy rain ..

things were cheap at the morning market ..
cux exchange rate is about 1:25 ..
so things were cheap for mie ..
but to them they aren't that cheap bahx ..
i bought a phone case for my sis ..
its onli 20 baht ..
which means onli 80cents ..
and in sing ..
they actually sell it got 4 bucks ??
see e diff ??
too bad they dun have w850i de casing ..
if not i may buy like 5 or 10 ..
LOLX ..

went back hotel to sleep after that morning market ,,
den went to e hotel's restaurant for ABF ..
but it wasn't nice at all ..
like i've said ..
a budget hotel ..
so diff compared to e one my sis ans i went to ..

went back to hotel to sleep directly after breakfast ..
lolx ..
i'm jux so pig ..
haha ..
nvm llars ..
no worries cux i dun need any bf le ..
=D ..
slept till 3 plus ..
wash up den go to e four face budda temple to pray ..
den to ah ju ah yi's hse ..
e boy came too n another grandson of hers ..

den to puo mo's hse ..
its actually my parent's fren whom can have gods possessedon her and we get to ask bout things we wanna know or it will tell us bout our studies,friends,business,health and all ..
and mine ,,
not that good i suppose ..
shall not tell what e god said ..
now sing time 10.14pm ..
thai 9.14pm ..
so we goin for dinner ..
super hungry ..
haha ..

finish eating le ..
time now 11.49pm ..
oh ..
thats sing time of cux ..
now goin back to hotel to be pig ..
=D ..
i mux say ..
i LOVE thai's tom yum soup !!

21/3
woke up at 10plus ..
never go morning market ..
parents went of cux ..
hmm ..
washed up ..
ate bread,changed and went out to pray again ..
ate lunch after praying n back to hotel to rest ..
weather was super hot ..
came out again ..
went to this shopping centre called mbk ..
lolx ..
didn't really buy anything ..
cux ex and not suitable ..
haha ..
now 6.04pm ..
in taxi on our way to ah ju ah yi's hse ..
mum say later goin foot massage again ..
diff place de bahx ..
YAY !!!
tml goin back le ..
=D

didn't go to massage with them ..
went to the ocean world with ah ju ah yi's children and her 2 grandson ..
not alot of things compared to sing but they have a rainforest and sing doesn't ..
went to swenswns for ice cream ..
its so much cheaper compared to sing ..
went to eat kuay zap near out hotel ..
and now ..
back in hotel room ..
haha ..
time now 11.50pm ..
sing time ..
tml goin back le ..
haha ..
miss him ..
hopefully can meet him tml or fri ..
haha ..

22/3
YAY !!!!
going back le ..
now at airport ..
jux now went to eat lunch with ah ju ah yi they all den they send us to airport ..

done with thai's blogging ..
btw when i'm goin there i bought a packet of apple juice on the airplane ..
and it cost 3 sing dollars !!!!
LOL ..

LoUviN U__]]* 3:03 PM

went to sentosa with classmates ..
played,tanned ..
had fun ..
went to MS for dinner ..
yuki yaki ..
cost bout 24 each person ..
and its like a buffet kind lla ..
nth much .
=)
sometimes i do dislike e guys ..
dun wish to say why ..

LoUviN U__]]* 1:38 PM

went to buy my phone ..
den went out with tc and gang ..
we watch primeval ..
was nice ..
and TC ..
he super funny lla ..
cannot ta han ..
his actions and stuff never fail to make mie laugh ..
haha ..
and pls ..
he is childish llors ..
he threw popcorns at mie ..
and of cux i threw them back at him ..
haha ...
tc went off after movie ..
went for dinner at kovan ..
den pool at hougang plaza ...
=)

LoUviN U__]]* 1:11 AM

frm the loved one ..

dordor! oh my dearest
awww. don't melt eh. haha. thanks for all th gifts you've been showering me w. be it, x'mas/vday/bday so on & so forth. okok, don't remind me. i know i still owe you like a mountain of gifts alright. FINE LA. trust me, i know what t do:DD i'd nvr forget th day when you came by ActionCity t visit me & bought plasters for me just becos my leg was hurting! aw, hw swt of you:) woman, you look great when you smile. THOSE STRAIGHT TEETH.. wlao. envy. TSKKK. so yep! don't let anything pull you down, get ovr those sad happenings fast! let's meet up this wkend (if possible) or latest, after your MIA okay! i'm sry t have been pushing our dates ltr & ltr, i'm packed w tuitiorials & exams you see:D i promised you t work hard & look! my results prove it all:D heh. no fret not, sneezy would not disappoint you:) smile dor, cos you know i won't wna see you frown:D
(edited MIA)

thanks for everything k ..
=)
I KNOW YOU LOVE MIE !!!!
this weekend mayb not free eh ..
=(
dun miss mie when i go MIA k ..
AWW...
I KNOW U WILL LLA !!!!!!
=DD

LoUviN U__]]* 3:15 AM

for my beloved, dorothy.dearest! don't you feel upset about what had happened alright. it's useless t feel down over such a thing. i got very affected by that from th begining too. i left the coy becos i couldn't take it any further. i don't feel th sense of belonging.
**took a line out**
i held on in gg becos of you, tee & my patrol. but at th end of everything, i realized that it's all not worthwhile. all my efforts were not appreciated, & all that i've done? taken for granted. my passion for guiding is still burning, but i know, it's not as much as before.don't get too affected by this alright. it's not worth it. cheer up!:D sneezy doesn't wish t see you getting upset ovr meaningless stuffs:)

thanks my love one ..
=)
i'll be just fine ..
no worries k !!
LOVE YOU !!!!

LoUviN U__]]* 7:34 PM

went hq today ..
went for the YA thing ..
hear them talk bout UH ..
and they say ppl who didn't attend UH course are unofficial UH ..
i knew MT gave yun 2oo bucks for courses for she and wan ..
WHAT BOUT MINE ??
last week she also told mie to consider another sch that i wan to get into ..
i knew what she meant ..
i could tell ..
from the things she said ..
i could long ago tell that they wanted to take wan and yun in for YA ..
and our sch could onli take in 2 ..
everything they tell them they never inform mie at all ..
i ASKED them on my own ..
today ..
i got no choice but to ask MT bout the UH course ..
i know they gotta choose only two ..
and this is what she said in the last msg ..
"School will be taking wan and sze yun. U can join us unofficially.sorry."
I KNEW THIS WOULD COME ..
i know they would choose them ..
partly cux of TYN too ..
i can assure that !!
seriously ..
i felt like crying when i saw that though i expected that to come ..
i jux tried to put up my false front of not wanting to bother ..
thats all ..
seriously ..
i rather they tell mie earlier and i dun join YA AT ALL ..
seriously ..
i truly understand what and how sneeze felt ..
i NO LONGER feel the sense of belonging ..
GUIDES felt like its 10 metres away from mie even though i still have passion for it ..
i dun understand why ..
mayb i'm jux not good enough for them ...
i dun fit to be a YA in HS ..
anyway i dun like that BIAS TYN either ...
MT CHENGED ever since she came in ...
i see that big big change ..
its no longer the MT that i first knew ..
mayb i wun be goin back for HS 1st coy anymore ..
thats no longer the place that i belong to ...

sometimes i do hate myself ..
things i do would never go the way i want it to be ..
it always goes the other way ..
it makes mie feel like i'm so useless ...

JUNIORS READING THIS ..
i'm really sry for everything that happened ..
currently i've gotta learn to let go ..
wan and yun will still go back to serve as a YA ..
as for mie ..
i may not go back ..
i'll see how things goes ..
I STILL LOVE THE BONGING I HAVE AND ALL THE HEART TO HEART TALKS ..
I JUX LOVE YOU GUYS ..

soon ..
it will be a new chapter of life ..
I'LL JUX LEAVE ..
i'll try to forget those things that i once had ..
i'll try not to take them with mie ..
i'll LEARN TO LET GO ...
i shall LEAVE THINGS that don't belong to mie behind ..
give mie some time ..
thats all i want now ...

LoUviN U__]]* 11:10 PM

Worked during e IT show for the past few days ..
fair was 8-11 ..
first two days were good ..
sold 40 plus monitor each day ..

things were goin on fine till 3rd day ..
served a customer when SHE isn't serving and SHE was talking to XY ...
SHE back facing customer ..
so i serve ..
happened to be my customer too ..
den SHE turned & saw mie serving ..
SHE told XY sth ..
i suppose is sth like i snatch her customer or sth like that ..
i managed to close e deal ..
and XY told SHE in chinese ..
he also buy liao ..
den SHE not happy ..
and go about telling ppl i snach her customer ??!!!
heard that SHE even tear ..
THEY even complained to KEN k !!!!
like WTH ???
as if they didn't take mine ..
GO AND DIE LLA ...
how CHILDISH can you ppl get ??
all e time flirting around with guys ...
**PUKES !!!!!**
i have my friends who think i'm right !!!
KO support mie TOO !!!

shuai shuai working too !!!
saw him on the second day when he went about walking and slacking during work ..
SEE HOW SLACK HE IS !!!!!
LOL ..
work ending de time he also come find mie ..
XD ..
3rd day onli saw him in e morning ..
when i was looking at camera ..
bought my T10-black ..
LAST DAY ..
i went to find shuai shuai ..
(^-^)
shall not go in details ..
but got each other's number ..
=)
THATS ALL ...

LoUviN U__]]* 1:38 AM

Posted to TP ..
Business/Logistics & Operations Management/Marketing ..
thats my course ..
business studies group ..
like der ..
theres you know who(a gal & a guy) that i dun like in that course too ...
like CAN I DIE ...
but luckily i found a pri sch fren thats in e same course as mie ..
=D

LoUviN U__]]* 10:15 PM

GHOSTLY trip
went to the trip with jeran jux now ..
like der ..
i didn't want to go ..
haha ..
was his bday ..
so i went ..
he paid for mie ,,
=/

went to e malay cemetry ..
den into e tunnel ..
den to sentosa..
e fort canning thing and the tunnels ..
saw some red stuff ..
dunno is blood or paint ..
the API got shocked by one of the people in e grp ..
HAHA ..
hmm ..
go to a person's hse ..
he got a few doggie ..
cute cute de ..
=D
den went to see singapore biggest tomb ..
and the devil turn ..
thats all ..

sounds simple ..
but the walking in and stuff was creepy ..
the API brought us to walk and we walk across a tomb ??!!!!
the muddy floor that made our shoes dirty ...
the self explore in to the tunnels ...
i accidently hit my head when i was coming out from one of the tunnels ..

got lots of help from the API ..
cux places are slippery ..
like der ..
gotta hold their hands in order to get support ..
and needless to say ..
jeran helped too ..
haha ..
i sound like i'm useless right ??
=/

ok ...
so guys can bring ur gals to such trips ..
esp when u nv hold their hand b4 ...
LOL ..
and jeran ar ..
next time ar ..
ask ur gf go ..
HAHAHA ..
=D

LoUviN U__]]* 1:59 AM

NEW SKIN FOR MY DARLING SNEEZE !!!!!
=)

LoUviN U__]]* 1:41 AM

so many things happened recently ..
some are happy and some aren't ..

these few days ..
thanks to that idiot ben ..
he kept changing the training thing ..

i registered for my Y.A ..
GUIDES jux rawk so much ..
its one of my supports ..
so all the courses and stuff will be up next ..
would be busy bahx ..
went thinking day last week & sports day today ..
had lots of catch up with my dear wan lin ..
and of cux some with juniors ..
jux love all the heart-to-heart talks ..

found out that theres a bastard near mie ..
luckily didn't really contact for some time ...
jux speechless towards his actions ..
made a gal suffered so much for him ..

class gathering @ sakura was nice ..
ate lots of RAW SALMON ..
thats my fav ,,
pooling,arcade,shopping..
=)

LOVE old man for his NDS & PSP ..
it kills time ..

to my dear boy zy,
some things are jux part of life ...
we gotta go through it ..
of cux it isn't a easy process ..
but i'll stand by u ..
=)
feel free to look for mie ..
LOVE YA ..

anyway ppl ..
i dun wish to get into a relationship now ..
even if i have feelings for someone or anyone ..
jux wanna stay single and have all the fun ..
the freedom and the right that singles have ..
and i can't stand quarrels & stuff ..
these things can wait till i get into poly den say bahx ..
anyway i dun really care,bother or give a damn ..

so long my friends ..
=)

LoUviN U__]]* 12:03 AM