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Friday, December 16, 2005



There is a picture i see in my mind ..
i'm here in a dark world ..
i'm being trapped in here ..
all i see is jux darkness ..
its so silent tat i dun even hear a single sound ..
there is no one beside mie ..
no one here to accompany mie through ..
i dun see any light to lead my way ..
.neither do i hear any voices tat can lead mie out ..
i'm here all by myself ...
tats all i know ...
i wonder if i would be able to see the light again ..
or stuck in here forever ...
seriously ..
i dun wanna noe the ans either ...


LoUviN U__]]* 9:01 PM

Sunday, December 04, 2005



Hmm .. i'm not feeling well .. not feeling good .. i have tis weird feeling in my stomach ... feel like voimiting .. and someone jux sae sometihing or not ralli sae larr .. wat ever larr ... i onli noe i jux cry out and tears seems like they can't bestopped ... i dun understand y u are always like tat .. watever larr .. i dun wish ta say anything ... i'm jux feeling so down and uneasy now ... i believe i'll vomit soon ...


LoUviN U__]]* 12:50 AM

Thursday, December 01, 2005



Hmm .. fer the past 3 days i went to the amoy quee camp fer some footdrill thingy .. i'm so tired everyday after the thing had ended .. but i do have a great time there ... we made alot of new frens there ... the NCC there rawk man !! haha... i see one shuai ge in my syn lehh .. but tat mad marion sae he not good looking .. haha .. watever ... but everyone is juz super nice ... we helped each other during te test ny giving hints and stuff ... haha .. den got one guy super funni .. he came from another syn ta our syn fer footdrill test .. den he dunno anything .. he sae squad diam le den he still say thank you ... !!!!! HAHA !!! i wun ever forget tat lorr.... everyone despite being in the squad .. we can't ta han but laugh .. even the tester from NCC air laughed !! LOLX !! hmm .. i learn alot of things when i'm there .. i learned how ta take a rifle and handle with it .. and some drills which i dun know .. and i realised tat NCC are SUPER disiplined .. i dunno how ta spell haha... last dae we complain bout everything when one NCC officer ask bout our coments fer the camp .. one NCDCC guy sae NCC sea is much better den NCC air and I TOTALLY AGREE !!! NCC SEA JUX RAWK MORE THAN NCC AIR !!! haha ... NCC air's CLT jux SUC* haha .. when passing out . everyone was super happie .. but reuben,bernard,basyir and patrick didn't manage to get through .. dunno y .. sad for them .. except fer patrick .. he deserve a fail .. hopefully they pass after re-test .. and reuben's action and the way he tok like sam sam .. but they not siblings leii .. haha .. oh ya .. another thing ... NCC SEA'S CLT JUX RAWK LORR !! tat jing kai (i dunno issit spelled like tat) veri cute .. he got tat baby face .. haha .. den mdm farah veri nice but sometimes she veri fierce also .. and tat stupid KT TAN .. his name is kok teng .. his voice reminds mie of pufferfish lorr ... so alike ... but KT Tan so much better den tat stupid pufferfish .. haha ...

den there is this stupid CLT from NCC air damn act big lorr .. like he CLT damn big f like tat .. abuse attority de lorr .. scold tis small boy .. but tat small boy rank not veri small also larr .. but obviously tat CLT bigger .. but he SUC* lorr .. i'm lucky to be with NCC sea instead of air ... or not i'll die !! haha .. like all the guides except tat changket changi ... she ... EE .. haha .. dun wanna tok bout her .. binnie veri funni den tat MJ talks like my cousin and tat marion is always MAD !! haha hmm .. think nth le ... had fun .. ya .. think i'll miss them .. hopefully we will meet again one dae ... oh ya .. had tis gal in my syn .. quite close with her too .. she veri nice de ..=) tats all fer my past 3 days ..

and now .. or say jux now .. i had tis weird feeling .. a feeling tat can't be described ... sth like being left alone or wat .. i also not sure wat kind of feeling it is ... but after typig alomst everything bout the NCC thingy .. i somehow feel better ... tats all ...


NCC SEA RAWKS !!!
SYN 2 RAWKS TOO !!


LoUviN U__]]* 1:01 PM