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Saturday, April 16, 2005



Sorri fer not bloggin so long...was busy with N1 cluster meeting and bro dun let mie use the com...

Last sun sth BIG happened...i had a silent break down...cuz of somethings a fren said...well...i told no one bout tis...i got no mood ta eat tat nite...everything is sort of sadd...i can't sae anything neither can i do anything...i wanted ta cry out loud...but i can't...i pretended ta be happie...i was thinking bout it fer the whole nite...juz can't stop thinking of it no matter how hard i try...i was wondering who ta believe too...tat fren told mie tis...another fren sae its not true...i dunno...On mon...i was sad...but i pretended tat nth happened and smile...i was afraid tat things would be different after those things tat happened on sun...tat time i was onli hoping tat everything was like normal...at 1st i thought it wasn't...but actually it was la..cuz he dunno anythingg...tat nite i cried...cuz of the show i'm watching and the thing lorr...in the noon i went ta cp wif lew...we shop fer IFD presents...i'm broke!!!

Tues...everything was normal..got guitar after skool...we use the classroom...cuz band got syf on thurs...nth much...wed we started preparing fer fri...we are busy like hell...i played in the rain!!=)...thurs...got guides also...we are doin all the things...but the sec 1s...haiz...i'm speechless...got guitar also...got no chioce but ta go guitar instead of guides...after guitar..went back ta guides...den went lew's hse ta make passport...ben told mie they got bronze...and he is feeling sadd...but i made him feel worse...SORRI!!!At home sth happened...i cried cuz of sth impt..den i watch tv and i cried again...for i dunno y...the show is not touching neither its sadd....sometime i stopped...den i cried again when i'm in bed...cuz i thought of somethings...mayb juz tat i think too much bahx...

Fri...a big busy dae...N1 cluster!!!and also IFD!!We exchange presents during guides in the morning when we are being called out..haha...there is a nice celebration...We are veri busy once we are out...we didn't even have ta time ta go ta break to have lunch...we prepare everything and get changed...i took pics of the guides...sth cropped up in the beginning...den after sometime all was as usual le...we walk pass the scouts while bringing the guides round the skool...dey watch the scouts' performance...den went down ta the australia booth...got 3 place...while the guides are in the 2nd place..dia said morden dance got silver!!!WUHOO~~we are so happie fer them...i called ham...her fone was off...i went ta find her and tell her....she was so shocked kae!!!and SHE CRIED!!!OMG!!!the booth in music room got food lehh!!!we ate!!!YUMMY!!!went back ta hall fer performace and stuff...den pack up le...after tat went nan chiau high wif tee fer debates...they didn't get into the finals...but there is sth funni...KILLER WHALES!!!!haha...went cp ta eat den cum home...

Todae..nth much...but got bit bit sadd...cuz sth...someone promised ta do sth but he didn't...NVM!!!I dun care le...Mrs chang told us sth todae..she sae we will wait fer our results on thurs before we go back ta skool...OMG!!!I'm afraid tat i may burst out...i'll try not to...even if i can't control...i will hide it from ppl around mie...i believe i can....

JUIAN!!U are my best of best fren...Fer the past 2 years +,u have always been there fer mie and helped mie no matter wat...thanks alot!!!No matter wat we will be best freind forever!!!ILU!!!=)

*i decided ta give up le...there is nth i can do anymore...wats more there are somethigs i heard...and sometime lata i noe the truth...give mie sometime and i'll let them go...everything will be back ta normal...u are now onli my best fren!!!i'll stop all the things i've been doin and keep a distance from u...


LoUviN U__]]* 2:39 PM